As people near me know I've sustained a "brain injury" after battling with chronic pain and chronic fatigue (and loneliness) for many years. That was in 2018 and it took about 4 years to recover from that for the most part. The last few months have been quite good with the exception of having to deal with social wellfare and the disability insurance and related agencies. Those things are now mostly settled and I should now be able to continue resuming a normal life. I'm not going to be able to resume work in the occupation I trained and studied for but I don't really care about that.

In the last few years I wasn't really able to do anything and in the last few months I didn't manage to do a lot too. I feel like I wasn't living up to my full potential. I didn't study as much, I didn't play my music instruments as much and stuff like that. However, starting from monday I will start to try to live more to my full potential. I'll start eating clean (with the exception of social occasions where that isn't really possible without being scrutinized/stigmatized) which means little to no refined foods, no caffeine, no alcohol (again: with the exception of social occasions), no sweets, nothing with added sugar and all that stuff. I will also pick up studying foreign languages (again) and play more with my music instruments.

Even though I've now recovered from my "brain injury" as much as it seems possible I'm still looking back to around 13 years of psychiatric abuse which of course is something that you don't get rid of that easily and at least in the usual day-to-day life isn't a problem but it's going to be a problem when having to deal with authoroties because they have a hard time of understanding that issue and of course the employees of those authoroties don't have training in psychiatry which only makes things worse. But anayway, at least at the moment I have the feeling that they will just let me be. But I'll of course be hearing from them within the next 2-5 years as is mandatory by law. All such cases have to be periodically re-evaluated.